Day two: There’s worms in my ears.

That’s four sessions down, and it’s not getting any easier to be honest. I’ve noticed that my head seems to play the hook of a song on repeat. The song changes depending on what I’ve been listening to that day, last night it was “Owner of a lonely heart”. Maybe the songs that get stuck in our heads get stuck for a particular reason, but I’m not too sure.

I was thinking to myself, how am I supposed to meditate when my head is constantly singing stuff? So I started reading into how/why this happens. According to one source, these tunes are called ear-worms, and trying to get rid of them only brings your attention to them more. The article suggests that you should try to listen to your surroundings as closely as possible, just be a very observant listener. Eventually the ear worm will fade away.

At some point I just got bored and thought about what exactly I was doing, and then it occurred to me that I don’t really know what meditation is. As far as I was aware, meditation was about sitting quietly and tuning into the universe (Whatever the hell that means). Headspace however, has a much better definition:

“It’s about training in awareness and getting a healthy sense of perspective. You’re not trying to turn off your thoughts or feelings. You’re learning to observe them without judgment.” I guess it’s more about listening to yourself than telling yourself to be quiet.

I felt pretty chilled out and happy today, slightly more in control. Not sure whether it’s the meditation or just a good day, but I feel like now I know what to do, I might start seeing benefits.

Peace ❤




Musical Anhedonia.

It’s just another manic Monday!
Nah only messing, my day has been pretty chilled. Went swimming & one of the lifeguards was peng, could’ve married her then and there. Came back and made a full English fry up and then recorded a 3 hour podcast with Thane! It’s safe to say I’m physically and mentally drained.

My bootleg studio set-up.

Off-air, Thane told me some interesting things about music. Did you know there are some people who have no emotional attachment to it what-so ever? These types of people have what’s called “musical anhedonia” (Affects around 3-5% of peeps) and because of this, they don’t feel anything when listening to music. They can understand it, but there’s a very little link between their auditory processing and reward center in their brain. Personally I couldn’t imagine a world where I don’t lose my shit whenever the Chili’s come on. Music is a massive part of my identity and it’s helped me through so much shit.
You get laid for the first time? Listen to “I just had sex” -Lonely Island.
Your dog just die? Listen to “I miss you” -Blink 182.

For me, the crazy thing about music is it’s ability to elicit an emotion that I hadn’t felt in a long time. For example, every time I listen to “House every weekend” I get reminded of everything I went through with an Ex. Or if I listen to “Africa” then I’m immediately taken back to my first season at the Aquapark. Good times man. Music heals the soul, it’s the universal language that connects us all! Or at least those who don’t suffer from musical anhedonia…

I hope you all have a great week! You’re beautiful.

Peace ❤